AN EXPERIENCE OF DEPRESSION.............
It’s morning. I try to open my eyes as I lay in bed, but really I just want to leave them closed. Merely trying to peel open my eyelids feels like it takes a supreme amount of energy that I just can’t find anywhere in my body. So I’ll leave them closed. And my bed is so comfortable, I just want to sink deeper into the mattress and pull the covers over me. Sleep feels so good. I can get up later. Maybe I’ll call in sick today, I just need a day. It’s afternoon now. If I don’t get out of bed soon, I’m going to lose the whole day. Ugh…why do I do this to myself? There are so many things I need to get done, and all I’m doing is laying in bed all day. Okay, I’m going to push myself out of bed. Standing beside my bed, it’s calling me back in. Maybe just today I can use the day in bed? Oh wait, look at the TV over there. Maybe I should just go to the couch and catch up on TV. That sounds great…I can nuzzle up in the corner of the couch with a blanket and watch a couple of episodes